Dearest Esmeralda,
My name is Eddie. I am a 37 year old Italian/Irish fourth generation American. I live in the suburbs of Maryland. Maryland is just above Washington, D.C. I am extremely saddened by the situation that has swallowed me whole and has compromised my marriage. I am a very career oriented police officer with a Sgt rank. I work at least 60 plus hours a week. I have a wife and three children. When I am not working as a police officer, I co-own a landscaping business that makes double the money I make as a civil servant. My family and I live in the perfect suburb, in a perfect house with two perfect family cars for a seemly perfect lifestyle.
The problem is that I caught my wife having an affair with a man she met on AOL. I know this because she accidentally had her AOL e-mail account sign on automatically and this infidel man started chatting with me as if I were my wife. I chatted with this man for 30 minutes pretending to be my wife. It appears that my wife and this man are having an affair and I am completely heart broken. I am destroyed. I approached my wife and she denied ever sleeping with him. She says that he is there for her and that she is lonely because I work too much. She says they just talk. She says that he is exciting and spontaneous and that he makes her feel beautiful. I know she is have an affair. I feel it in my heart of hearts. I came from a broken family and I don't want our kids to grow up in a divorced household.
I just don't know what to do. I asked her to go to marriage therapy, but she doesn't want too. I asked her what can I do about her talking on-line all the time and she says she stopped, but I don't believe her. I can't imagine leaving her, I can't believe this is happening to me.
Last night my wife and I got drunk at a BBQ and I got very possessive because my wife has made me insecure. I got a little loud and made us both leave the party which consisted mostly of fellow police officers and their girlfriends and wives. When we got home, my wife seduced me and we had very dirty crazy sex and she told me she loves me. She asked me during sex if I still loved her and I cried yes. She asked me if I'd still love her even if she had had sex with the man on-line. I was so turned on during sex I had an orgasm right then. I was embarrassed and humiliated by my performance in bed. The worst part was that she did not have an orgasm, this made me feel even more inadequate. I'm torn apart. I am a lost soul. I am weak for her. I want to find this man she is talking to and make him go away.
What can I do? What can I say to make her love me again like she did in high school. She's all I think about these days and I can't concentrate.
Help Esmeralda,
Eddie
My name is Eddie. I am a 37 year old Italian/Irish fourth generation American. I live in the suburbs of Maryland. Maryland is just above Washington, D.C. I am extremely saddened by the situation that has swallowed me whole and has compromised my marriage. I am a very career oriented police officer with a Sgt rank. I work at least 60 plus hours a week. I have a wife and three children. When I am not working as a police officer, I co-own a landscaping business that makes double the money I make as a civil servant. My family and I live in the perfect suburb, in a perfect house with two perfect family cars for a seemly perfect lifestyle.
The problem is that I caught my wife having an affair with a man she met on AOL. I know this because she accidentally had her AOL e-mail account sign on automatically and this infidel man started chatting with me as if I were my wife. I chatted with this man for 30 minutes pretending to be my wife. It appears that my wife and this man are having an affair and I am completely heart broken. I am destroyed. I approached my wife and she denied ever sleeping with him. She says that he is there for her and that she is lonely because I work too much. She says they just talk. She says that he is exciting and spontaneous and that he makes her feel beautiful. I know she is have an affair. I feel it in my heart of hearts. I came from a broken family and I don't want our kids to grow up in a divorced household.
I just don't know what to do. I asked her to go to marriage therapy, but she doesn't want too. I asked her what can I do about her talking on-line all the time and she says she stopped, but I don't believe her. I can't imagine leaving her, I can't believe this is happening to me.
Last night my wife and I got drunk at a BBQ and I got very possessive because my wife has made me insecure. I got a little loud and made us both leave the party which consisted mostly of fellow police officers and their girlfriends and wives. When we got home, my wife seduced me and we had very dirty crazy sex and she told me she loves me. She asked me during sex if I still loved her and I cried yes. She asked me if I'd still love her even if she had had sex with the man on-line. I was so turned on during sex I had an orgasm right then. I was embarrassed and humiliated by my performance in bed. The worst part was that she did not have an orgasm, this made me feel even more inadequate. I'm torn apart. I am a lost soul. I am weak for her. I want to find this man she is talking to and make him go away.
What can I do? What can I say to make her love me again like she did in high school. She's all I think about these days and I can't concentrate.
Help Esmeralda,
Eddie
Dear Eddie,
If you can believe me, I know what you are going through. It is not uncommon for these type of situations to happen and to be quite frank with you, your letter turned me on. You are such a devoted husband. I bet in my heart of hearts you've masturbated to your wife's infidelities. It's an angst that ebbs in your heart and slowly and erotically grows within like a cancer eating holy matrimony until your left a broken totally subservient more attentive husband.
Hell Eddie, what did you think was going to happen? Your wife is at home raising your kids and you're too busy with materialism. You created your monster Eddie and the worse part, you stayed. You don't want a broken family? Eddie, did I read you correctly? You had an orgasm as soon as she asked you if you'd still loved her if she had sex with the man on-line. God. You turn me on. There is either something wrong with me or you're the perfect husband. I must say, more women need a man like you.
Just so you know, I'm dripping as I write this, but Eddie you are a cuckold. A loving, hard working, law abiding, probably good looking, low self esteemed cuckold. How do I know this Eddie? I know this because I've been a Cuckoldress for a very long time. If there is one expertise Esmeralda knows, it's cuckoldry.
My suggestion... Stay a good husband. Support your family and try to make it up to your wife who slaves for your children in your perfect suburbs, driving your perfect mini-van of life as you ignore her basic meta needs of love and lust and satisfaction...
Esmeralda
If you can believe me, I know what you are going through. It is not uncommon for these type of situations to happen and to be quite frank with you, your letter turned me on. You are such a devoted husband. I bet in my heart of hearts you've masturbated to your wife's infidelities. It's an angst that ebbs in your heart and slowly and erotically grows within like a cancer eating holy matrimony until your left a broken totally subservient more attentive husband.
Hell Eddie, what did you think was going to happen? Your wife is at home raising your kids and you're too busy with materialism. You created your monster Eddie and the worse part, you stayed. You don't want a broken family? Eddie, did I read you correctly? You had an orgasm as soon as she asked you if you'd still loved her if she had sex with the man on-line. God. You turn me on. There is either something wrong with me or you're the perfect husband. I must say, more women need a man like you.
Just so you know, I'm dripping as I write this, but Eddie you are a cuckold. A loving, hard working, law abiding, probably good looking, low self esteemed cuckold. How do I know this Eddie? I know this because I've been a Cuckoldress for a very long time. If there is one expertise Esmeralda knows, it's cuckoldry.
My suggestion... Stay a good husband. Support your family and try to make it up to your wife who slaves for your children in your perfect suburbs, driving your perfect mini-van of life as you ignore her basic meta needs of love and lust and satisfaction...
Esmeralda
Dearest Eddie,
I'm afraid going to Esmeralda is like asking for sympathy from the Devil. She has a good point in broaching the cuckold nature of your behavior. I too can't help question your motives by admitting your nifty swift orgasm.
According to Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia, a cuckold is a married man whose wife has sex with other men. In current usage it sometimes refers to non-married couples in committed relationships as well, although the traditional meaning is a man whose wife is adulterous. There are connotations of helplessness and humiliation attributed to the word: implications that the husband lacks the strength to enforce marital fidelity traditionally accorded to a husband as head of his household. He is too weak, too stupid, or too broken to leave or divorce her.
Cuckolds are also sometimes portrayed as having horns (which look like devil horns), but this is actually a crescent moon set behind the head. Since the moon waxes and wanes, it was held as a symbol of the changeability of love, and especially the fickleness of women, so a cuckold had the moon hanging over his head.
Because cuckolding at its heart is a humiliation fantasy, it works best when the individual with the fantasy believes cuckolding is hopelessly the only choice for their relationship. This may be one of the reasons cuckold fantasy stories tend contain the theme that females are genetically predisposed to desire the "alpha-male", prefer men with larger genitalia or that their wives are driven with wild lust.
In some cases, "cuckolding" is a means for the husband to express same-sex desires through his wife and/or directly with the additional participant.
In various alternative-lifestyle support groups and on-line forums, homosexuality is often a primary concern for both couples thinking about participating in "cuckolding", with the heterosexual husband being uneasy about the possibility of a homosexual encounter.
I think maybe your cuckold angst is true torture to yourself. As you get accustomed to the roller coaster emotions of your love/hate relationship with yourself, you will find the eroticism of your humiliation and the ups and downs addicting. Eddie, I think you are flirting with acceptance. The question is; what are you going to do with yourself now? Don't be flakey.
I'm afraid going to Esmeralda is like asking for sympathy from the Devil. She has a good point in broaching the cuckold nature of your behavior. I too can't help question your motives by admitting your nifty swift orgasm.
According to Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia, a cuckold is a married man whose wife has sex with other men. In current usage it sometimes refers to non-married couples in committed relationships as well, although the traditional meaning is a man whose wife is adulterous. There are connotations of helplessness and humiliation attributed to the word: implications that the husband lacks the strength to enforce marital fidelity traditionally accorded to a husband as head of his household. He is too weak, too stupid, or too broken to leave or divorce her.
Cuckolds are also sometimes portrayed as having horns (which look like devil horns), but this is actually a crescent moon set behind the head. Since the moon waxes and wanes, it was held as a symbol of the changeability of love, and especially the fickleness of women, so a cuckold had the moon hanging over his head.
Because cuckolding at its heart is a humiliation fantasy, it works best when the individual with the fantasy believes cuckolding is hopelessly the only choice for their relationship. This may be one of the reasons cuckold fantasy stories tend contain the theme that females are genetically predisposed to desire the "alpha-male", prefer men with larger genitalia or that their wives are driven with wild lust.
In some cases, "cuckolding" is a means for the husband to express same-sex desires through his wife and/or directly with the additional participant.
In various alternative-lifestyle support groups and on-line forums, homosexuality is often a primary concern for both couples thinking about participating in "cuckolding", with the heterosexual husband being uneasy about the possibility of a homosexual encounter.
I think maybe your cuckold angst is true torture to yourself. As you get accustomed to the roller coaster emotions of your love/hate relationship with yourself, you will find the eroticism of your humiliation and the ups and downs addicting. Eddie, I think you are flirting with acceptance. The question is; what are you going to do with yourself now? Don't be flakey.
I think maybe your cuckold angst is true torture to yourself. As you get accustomed to the roller coaster emotions of your love/hate relationship with yourself, you will find the eroticism of your humiliation and the ups and downs addicting. Eddie, I think you are flirting with acceptance. The question is; what are you going to do with yourself now?
Signor Guadalupe Oreja
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